I still remember when a close friend of mine asked me, why someone should preach ? To which I answered that soon I would write a blog on WHY SHOULD I PREACH !! and see, today I am in delimma and questioning my own intelligence and thought of preaching rather to be precise giving someone else Gyan, advice or unwarranted and unasked suggestions.

To tell you truth, I am pretty good with it. I feel and think that since I have gone through rough patches, phases and situations It’s my liability to warn others and try to help them in whatever way I can. Well, that’s an amazing thought which is in my mind and even at times I pride on that but I myself fail to realise that what have I achieved and where I stand after going through so called phases which made me more wiser. And the time I start thinking on this aspect I feel ahan.. well that’s not right to preach or give suggestions, when I myself have failed so many times and have still not stood up.

I still fail to tackle tough situations, I still fail to understand other person’s view and I still fail to control my emotions when its needed most. I mean there’s so much where I have to prove myself, and not to some one else but to me only. I find it so strange, that how I have been suggesting, giving advice and talking a lot about focus, determination, intelligence, patience, maturity .. I mean all the key words which I feel, I lack somewhere. And thus I feel to make other person aware of its importance.

However, lately I have started feeling that I had enough of Gyan distribution and I should improve myself first before telling someone else. Reason, if someone questions my own integrity or success I mite give him answer but I myself wouldn’t be able to justify myself.

This is such a weird situation for me. I am in a situation where I am repeating mistakes again, losing focus probably, stand nowhere and I feel I am lost. I also know very well nobody is there to rescue my boat and Its me who has to save it and still I am …

Is it a phase ? I will n I am calling it as a phase because I know I will soon come out of it but till the time am not out of this phase, have decided to become student again and stop preaching.

Preachings, suggestions, advice they all has value when the person has success to back his words otherwise its meaningless !!