why does past haunts ?? i dont know how people take it, but for me it really becomes tough to handle the feelings.Once the thought enters in mind, it keeps running untill i am nt depressed … i keep on thinking abt all the possibilties why had, had happened.I think everything..i see the pictures of future possibilties and the present as well which i am nt at all aware of but still my mind creates a full picture ,rather i will say a full video coz its nt less than a movie …!! Seriously, its weird to talk like this even,but then its a reality.

My day almost finished in such a good node.It was boxing day today and i really had fun…but then this end, i swear i juss hate my past to the core.It’s nt a matter of finding out faults or mistakes,but i will always hate and will have hatred for the person and the things which had happened.One can be so cheap and emotionless, i never experienced it before.Its good or bad for me i dont know,but i surely know that i wasted my time and emotions.. i still cnt forget those days,one of the worst days !! and that why now i m scared of feelings and emotions.i just dont want to believe on them.They are just waste of time ..

Anyways, if i will start writing on it then i guess i can write on this for few weeks and i still wont be finished.Its better to keep few pain in heart itself !! No one cares and it matters to no one…

abb toh neend bhi nahi aayegi …

logging off now ..

Goodnight !!